I've been a collector of wisdom for over 35 years; a sort of modern alchemist taking a bit of this and a bit of that and forging something new. My propensity for throwing myself headfirst into life has created more than one major life event where I've found myself face first in the middle of the road asking myself "WTH just happened?!" I've come to affectionately call them "The Great Upheavals".
A stubborn refusal to stay down always pushed me to look for meaning, purpose, and a way through to the other side by looking for answers in the guise of spirituality, ancient wisdom, psychology, and astrology. This determined exploration would ultimately get things turned around, and the events would lead to bigger and better things. Inevitably, there came a time in my life when I found myself face first in the arena of life (again!) and it was a doozy. As before, much of the wisdom I had collected and incorporated over the years was helpful, yet once again I needed more.
My quest for meaning and understanding set me on a new path of self-discovery, helping me reclaim the woman I forgot I was and define the woman I want to be.
I'd like to share with you a defining moment -- and where it led me -- that brought me to where I am today: helping women like you create more calm and presence in their lives so they can make the changes they desire and become the woman they want to be.
It happened in early 2017. My husband had left me a few months earlier and the divorce had just been finalized. I was homeless -- living out of my 18-wheeler -- doing my best to self-heal and resuscitate a failing trucking business; all while driving the truck. I was holding on okay, drawing on the practices that had served me well during past upheavals to begin healing from the effects of 6 years in an abusive relationship. Yet I struggled to be present with myself, feel calm inside, and feel like I was on solid ground.
One day, as I was hurtling down the interstate pulling 30k lbs. of tires behind me, I had what I call "The Rude Awakening": being a truck driver was not my calling! I immediately felt like my world had come crumbling down around my feet - again. How on earth did I get here? Tears streaming down my face, I pulled into a rest area, climbed into the sleeper, and did some soul-searching. I was alone, lonely, and felt very isolated. On the surface, I felt trapped: how was I going to get out from under this trucking business and start life all over again? As I dug a little deeper, I realized that despite it all, I wasn’t ready to sell the truck. I had fought so very hard to keep it and the business; and I hadn't had much of a chance to succeed on my own. I needed to know I could.
In that moment, I made a commitment to myself to take advantage of my "acre of diamonds": 10+ hours a day that I could be listening to audio and exploring teachings to help me heal from emotional wounds I've never experienced before. I upped my Audible subscription and dove into everything and anything I thought could help; including modern psychology (thank you Brené Brown!), contemporary Buddhism through teachers like Tara Brach and Pema Chodron, and whatever was trending on the self-help shelves. I was determined to make the most of my unique opportunity to just sit, learn, grow, and heal. Through exploring these teachings and wisdom, I started gaining some clarity and feeling better, but I still struggled to just calm down inside, feel joy, and break out of the rut I felt I was in.
It was during this exploration that I discovered the teachings I needed to continue healing on a deeper level: Toltec wisdom and European shamanism through the voices of teachers like Don Miguel Ruiz (The Four Agreements) and HeatherAsh Amara (Warrior Goddess Training). Combined with the tools and map already in my backpack, I began charting my way back home to me. I was able to start unwinding from all the stress that had built-up inside me from a lifetime of soldiering on through upheavals and change. Most importantly, I had the tools for exploring and processing all the unexpressed emotions that had been shoved down over the years in the interest of "survival". I finally started becoming present, with myself and in my life; for what felt like the first time ever.
One day, while I was sitting at a dock getting unloaded, an ad came across my Facebook news feed for an upcoming workshop: Warrior Goddess Training - Reclaim Your Wholeness. This event CALLED to me. I realized it was a sign that it was time for me to take some time off, spend some money on myself, and go.
It was during the final ceremony of the workshop, called The Re-Birthing Ceremony, that I remembered who I am. As I witnessed the healing and transformation budding in so many amazing women, I remembered that for most of my life growing up, I wanted to help people. A month later, realizing I had succeeded, on my own terms, as an owner/operator, and recognizing it was time to step into the next chapter of my life, I sold my truck.
I spent the next 10 months diving deep into the teachings and practices I'd been learning, weaving them into a tapestry of healing and transformation. Using threads of my own making, I began stitching this tapestry into the fabric of my daily life, and began reclaiming who I used to be, got to know who I'd become, and became really excited about meeting the woman I am meant to be. Realizing this was the gift I was meant to share, I became a Warrior Goddess Facilitator and a Warrior Heart Practice Facilitator, and created The Wild-Hearted Way.
Since then I've been sharing my own unique blend of ancient wisdom, modern teachings, and personal insights to help women like you (and me!) come back home to themselves, embrace their journey, and be the heroine of their story.
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